Well I was sitting, waiting, wishing 
You believed in superstitions 
Then maybe you'd see the signs 

The Lord knows that this world is cruel 
I ain't the Lord, no I'm just a fool 
Learning lovin' somebody don't make them love you 

Must I always be waiting, waiting on you 
Must I always be playing, playing your fool 

I sang your songs, I danced your dance 
I gave your friends all a chance 
But putting up with them 
Wasn't worth never having you 

Maybe you've been through this before 
But it's my first time so please ignore 
The next few lines cause they're directed at you 

I can't always be waiting, waiting on you 
I can't always be playing, playing your fool 

I keep playing your part 
But it's not my scene 
Want this plot to twist 
I've had enough mystery 
Keep building it up 
Then shooting me down 
But I'm already down 

Just wait a minute 
Just sitting, waiting 
Just wait a minute 
Just sitting, waiting 

Well, if I was in your position 
I'd put down all my ammunition 
I'd wonder why'd it taken me so long 

But Lord knows that I'm not you 
And if I was, I wouldn't be so cruel 
Cause waitin' on love aint so easy to do 

Must I always be waiting, waiting on you 
Must I always be playing, playing your fool 

No, I can't I always be waiting, waiting on you 
I can't always be playing, playing your fool

Woo, it is today, on Wednesday 7th January 2009. That I feel extremely lazy to do anything! even to cook.

I am looking at what i have to do, and nada. I am idle. Im sooo lazy, hopefully only for today. I need to create alot of documents :p :p

Lazyyy a

Jangan Khawatir, kalau jodoh toh yah nanti pasti ketemu lagi. Nggak lari kemana2

I feel that he is THE ONE

Just for the record, 2nd of January, Red Violin.

I will consider it as an adventure rather than a misfortune.

My night / morning spent with the funny bestman mentioned in my earlier entries. It was great. What can I say, there is a first thing to everything, and it was definitely the first time i was 90 percent giving to a man. As if you have known my life, I was never 100% as the sex before marriage thing always kicks me in the head, but this time it was different.

I was having my period, heavy flow, so we didn't do it. But still, I enjoyed my time with him.

He is going away, and I don't believe in such thing as fate now, but I will keep on living, and being myself. For now, I like him alot. Take care banana.

Love,

Em

Artist: Jimmy Eat World
Song: The Middle

Lyrics :

Hey, don't write yourself off yet.
It's only in your head you feel left out or
looked down on.
Just try your best, try everything you can.
And don't you worry what they tell themselves when you're away.
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle, it'll up the ride.
Everything will be just fine, everything will be allright.
Hey, you know they're all the same.
You know you're doing better on your own, so don't buy in.
Live right now.
Yeah, just be yourself.
It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else.
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything will be just fine, everything will be allright.
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything will be just fine, everything will be allright.
Hey, don't write yourself off yet.
It's only in your head you feel left out or
looked down on.
Just do your best, do everything you can.
And don't you worry what the bitter hearts are gonna say.
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything will be just fine, everything will be allright.
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything will be just fine, everything will be allright

"Everybody's Changing"

You say you wander your own land
But when I think about it
I don't see how you can
You're aching, you're breaking
And I can see the pain in your eyes
Says everybody's changing
And I don't know why

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

You're gone from here
And soon you will disappear
Fading into beautiful light
Cause everybody's changing
And I don't feel right

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

Aku minta pada Allah setangkai bunga segar, Ia beri aku kaktus berduri.

Aku minta pada Allah binatang mungil nan cantik, Ia beri aku ulat berbulu.

Aku sempat sedih, protes dan kecewa... betapa tidak adilnya ini,

namun kemudian...

Kaktus itu berbunga, sangat indah sekali,

dan ulat itu pun tumbuh dan berubah menjadi kupu2 yang teramat cantik,

itulah jalan Allah,

indah pada waktunya!

Allah tidak memberi apa yang kita harapkan, tapi Ia memberi apa yang kita perlukan.

Kadang kita sedih, kecewa, terluka, tapi jauh diatas segalanya, Ia sedang merajut yang terbaik untuk kehidupan kita...